honesty

as i watch the people around me grow in stature and mature, i cant stop but wonder where i am in life right now. where am i heading towards. do i have direction? do i have a purpose and sense in life. i drift, day in day out. sitting out on the porch watching the cars pass me by. 18 blue. 21 grey. i pause to contemplate how far i've come in life. i pause to enjoy the fresh air. the blue skies. 3 months have gone by. 3 horrid but well eventful months. so much has happened. so many bonds have been formed and broken at the same time. learning to care more for others rather than myself. being less selfish and at the same time learning to care for myself. learning to love myself more. i learnt that i can make it through the rough patches. the tough times. i am strong. but no man is an island. and i could not have made it through the raging ocean if it were not for the dear people that have been an inspration and a guiding light. the darkness came. the darkness engulfed me in all its glory. but ive come to realise that the night is overly dark because the day is much too bright. happiness fills me when i realise that i have had good times. i have had smiles and i have enjoyed every ounce of daylight that shined through the broken window. honestly, i am truly blessed. live for the moment because you never know what the future brings. happy chinese new year everybody.